Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Come Join Me

I've decided to start a new website. 
Why? Quite simply, I need a new beginning. Come join me! 
Find me on my new site:
oxox Mare

Sunday, June 25, 2017

An Unimaginable Outpouring of Kindness

I am here. 
At moments I feel I am barely here.
My husband Jeremy took his life on Friday June 9th. 
I still can't fathom that to be a reality. 
Every day there are pockets of time where I am surviving minute-to-minute, reminding myself I can do anything for a short period of time. 
"You can do anything for ten minutes."  
It's something one of my oldest friends said to me shortly after Jeremy died.  It's become a mantra I repeat to myself multiple times a day.  It's as though two years have passed in the last two weeks. His funeral was one week ago tomorrow, and yet, it feels a lifetime ago. 
There are many things I am struggling with, things I will slowly start to share with you as I return to vlogging on my YouTube channel.  My subscribers, known as Mareathoners, have shown unwavering support from every corner of the globe and I will continue to lean on them.  Our dialogue is important, touching, supportive...necessary.  
I will slowly build a new normal for Thomas and myself, gently and on my own terms. It may not make sense to everyone, but it doesn't have to. I am uncertain as to how I should transition back to "normal".  Please be kind as I find my way. 
As I said as I addressed the room at Jeremy's memorial, I genuinely feel propped up by my family, my Mareathoners and the community.  I know this support to be true because of the past 16 days.  
Since word got out of Jeremy's passing, I have been inundated with an outpouring of kindness unlike anything I could have imagined.  It would be impossible for me to include every single person in one blog post but I know I will share anecdotes as they seem appropriate in my vlogs and social media in the coming weeks.  Lumping these amazing people into one post doesn't seem to do it justice and I will be doing my best to privately thank everyone.  But I do want to publicly share some of their kindness with you and I will.
For now, please know my shattered heart is being held together by your love and support. Please keep us in your thoughts. 
oxox M  

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